I’m the girl that feels too much, loves too hard, and is left in the dust when all is said and done. Being the girl that feels too much, often feels like a burden. It feels like the weight of the whole world sits on my shoulders and I am too tired to climb the mountain. Sometimes being the girl that feels too much is the loneliest thing in the world. I am the girl that will go out of her way at 4 am when you just need a shoulder to cry on. I am the girl who wears her heart on her sleeve and hands out too much to others and sheepishly expects the same in return. I am the girl that has slowly lost herself in a sea of giving.
But, I am also the girl who although she feels like drowning, gets up in the morning ready to make someone’s day. I am the girl who comps the coffee of the disgruntled woman who can’t find her wallet. I pay the toll for the man behind me desperately looking for change. I live to make others lives a little less sad and sometimes it tears me apart. But other times, it is the most beautiful thing in the world. I live for the moments when a smile crosses your face and I know I'm the one that put it there. I live for the moments when things are falling apart and I can be the shoulder you lean on. I live for moments that bring about joy, moments that make you appreciate your existence, the real moments. The moments that count.
Sometimes I get lost in thinking that life is too hard for the girl that feels too much. Sometimes I wish I could be anyone but me. But those moments, the real ones, the ones that bring warmth to your belly and ignite your willingness to live remind me that being the girl that feels too much isn't half bad at all.