It all starts somewhere, and that somewhere is here.
More often I find myself talking down to my reflection. Consistently reminding her she isn't where she wanted to be. I am not where I want to be. But that's the thing, I'm not there but I'm doing next near nothing to get there. It could have to do with the fact that I am not quite sure where "there" is, or I am just so overwhelmed its caused unintentional laziness, who knows. What I do know is I want to evoke. I want to evoke feelings from the things I create. That is my goal. I want someone to be able to read something I have written and feel something in their heart. I want to show those who feel alone, that they aren't alone at all. I often think about how the authors, whose books I surround myself in, make me feel. What do they do to my heart and how do they accomplish it? I think fiction speaks mountains about what lies beneath the surface without coming out and putting it plainly. I want to string together words in a way that allows for another to come to terms with what he/she is feeling in his/her heart.
But lately, I've just been stuck.
So, I am not yet a published renowned writer, nor am I really all that recognized, but that doesn't mean that I am never going to reach there. I find that three fourths of the time I write, I cling to a specific feeling and write it out of my system to the best of my ability. But when the momentum of said feeling dissipates, so does the will and want to finish what I stared. I have been reading different material regarding different techniques and different ways to self motivate. When in reality living is what motivates me. Maybe getting out of my head and gaining experience is what I need to begin writing again. To actually finish something for a change.
I am setting a goal for myself, to take a break from forcing myself to create content, and to just live a little and let the rest come with time. To evoke feeling, that is what I wish to do with my writing. As for the rest...well I'm still trying to figure it all out.
Here's to living, learning, and soon to be writing.